All is fair in love and war? pt 3 Staying in and going out of the Danger Zone

Nobody likes being gossiped about/against. Nobody ESPECIALLY likes to be in restraint or blinded when being gossiped about/against. When being restrained for a most serious enemy; it is beyond cruel and brutal..... Whatever was keeping me stared at and forced terror on me I am keeping stared down with murder....Before I go into that terrorist, I'm walking out of the danger zone with R!@k#, my present guy. He may be a little mad if he knew I were continuing on and talking about him in one way or another, but its the point to my title "All is fair...." I've been severely betrayed with too many other guys and their gossip and judgment. I'd hate the thought of him being a seriously more clean slate tainted with the worst cruel games and lies of others and it isn't even that I want him tainted or in deep with others beyond brutal games. Anyway, He and I had another good time last night. I would say it was mostly well. He was a little on the side of "I hope you're not a crazy one," but didn't get deep or elaborate with that. It was mostly a normal night and I tried to tell him more about Narnia and the closet/other world concept. We spent more time talking about other things and having fun. There was nothing about him that was keeping me tested to my face the way I was being tested on msn. He stayed an affectionate sweet talker and we still have another date. While I still can't put any of my personal judgment of belief in a worst rapist enemy on him, I will say I think he has some shadiness to him. I think he has a knowledge and knowing of me and other people. While I can't say he has pulled any trigger, I can say I think he has some knowledge. He brought up OJ Simpson last night. I asked him if he liked OJ and he had a quick response of "no" and keeping him a dogged man. The shadiness is a good and bad thing. I was saved from some feelings of loneliness and isolation, but the rest of the control he has with his knowledge and isolation is a very blinding thing. I enjoyed having a couple more laughs and kisses with him...….Staying in the danger zone. It's been an abstract thing I have had no choice over. The continued stare of terror and defiance... I feel I couldn't hate Stacy anymore with my life than what I do. Besides thinking she is severely sick and savage in the head, whatever man keeps threatening me with her is too. I would guess Jon, Don Jr., or Sidney, but some rapist bastard of a man must be helping Stacy's rapist bastard. I know some people feel they can beat other people with the worst simple statement of "it is what it is." You can't change what something is to me with Stacy, or anyone else. There is nothing more to it than that. Whomever wants to keep challenging me to Stacy's rapist bastard is nothing but a fellow rapist bastard who wants to throw another terrorizing, beyond cruel, hateful fit to my face and being a sore loser wishing they could change the way I thought or felt. I hate being forced to be provoked by this continued terrorism where someone won't stop threatening me with the way Stacy refuses to be told no and to stop. Like Stacy has the right to have her way with me; call the shots; be the dominate judge. You are nothing but a sick shameless act of rape and terrorism. I believe in details too much to ever feel like I could have an exact matching revenge. If I could have any kind of revenge against such a seriously shameless battery against my respect, I'd find some worst Butch kind of a man who has been in and out of jail several times with the worst record, worst education, and worst respect and I would have him put on such a seriously high pedestal where the bastard rapists would be forced to be threatened over anything Butch says or does. It isn't even that I would have to date or even be touched by Butch. Butch wouldn't know what it means to stop with my terrorists. Butch would never be told "no." Butch would roam free with his worst shot calling judgment and able to put them to the test in the worst way over anything, anytime. Butch will morbidly put his lies and blame for what he does on his same lied against and disgraced victims. The terrorists will be forced to take and put up with everything Butch does. They will be forced to lose to Butch with no mercy. If there was an expensively detailed revenge I could see to my face, I'd love to see my terrorists in their own worst terror. Just get bossed around with no mercy with Butch. Have salt rubbed in your wounds countless times. Feel like everything you say will always be found in deaf ears. You were always most willing with Butch.